The Way of Spiritual Transformation
by Hieromonk Damascene
A talk given at the Parish Life Conference of the Antiochian Orthodox
Diocese of Wichita and Mid-America, Sioux City, Iowa, June 9, 2005.
1. Transformation, Salvation, Deification
The theme of this Conference"Be not conformed to this world, but be transformed
by the renewal of your mind"is a rather daunting theme to talk about, because
it is so vast and all-encompassing. It touches on the whole purpose of our
lives as Orthodox Christians. Our Lord Jesus Christ said: I have chosen you out
of the world (John 15:19). We have been called out of this world in
order to become citizens of another world: the Kingdom of God. That Kingdom
begins now, in this life, continues after we leave this world, and will reach
its consummation at the Second Coming of our Savior. In order to dwell in that
Kingdom, to be its citizens, we must be transformed.
Be not conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind
(Rom. 12:2). These words from the Epistle of the Holy Apostle Paul to the
Romans help to introduce a Divinely inspired teaching on spiritual
transformation. In this talk, I will speak first about the theological
meaning of transformation in the Orthodox Church. Then I will provide a
commentary from the Holy Fathers concerning St. Paul's teaching on
transformation. Next, I will offer some practical suggestions concerning the way
to transformation, with an emphasis on watchfulness and prayer. Finally, I will
speak of authentic love as the primary mark of genuine spiritual
As I said, the theme of transformation points to the purpose of our life. That
purpose is unending union with Goddeification, theosis. But
deification is not a static condition: it is a never-ending growth, a process,
an ascent toward God. We do not reach the end in this life, nor even in the
life to come. St. Symeon the New Theologian, who attained what might be called
the highest possible degree of union with God in this life, said: "Over the
ages the progress will be endless, for a cessation of this growing toward the
end without ending would be nothing but a grasping at the ungraspable." 
Our union with God is a continual transformation into the likeness of
God, which is the likeness of Christ.
I, like many of you, have come to the Orthodox Church from a Protestant
background. Every once in a while, a Protestant will ask me the question: "Are
you saved?" It is difficult to answer this question in a way that a Protestant
would understand, because the Protestant conception of salvation is so
different from our Orthodox understanding. Recently I read Clark Carlton's book
The Life. He is a former Protestant himself, and well understands the
Protestant mind. He makes the insightful point that, in Protestantism,
salvation means simply changing God's attitude toward you, so that you can go
to heaven. According to this understanding, it literally only takes a few
minutes to be "saved." 
In Orthodoxy, on the other hand, salvation is viewed in maximal rather
than minimal terms. In his book Orthodox Spiritual Life according to St.
Silouan the Athonite, Harry Boosalis of St. Tikhon's Seminary writes:
"For the Orthodox Church, salvation is more than the pardon of sins and
transgressions. It is more than being justified or acquitted for offenses
committed against God. According to Orthodox teaching, salvation certainly
includes forgiveness and justification, but is by no means limited to them. For
the Fathers of the Church, salvation is the acquisition of the Grace of the
Holy Spirit. To be saved is to be sanctified and to participate in the life of
Godindeed to become partakers of the Divine Nature (2 Peter 1:4)."
In Orthodoxy, salvation means not simply changing God's attitude, but changing
ourselves and being changed by God. Salvation ultimately means deification; and
deification, as we have seen, entails transformation. It is being united with
God ever more fully through His Grace, His Uncreated Energy, in which He is
fully present. As we participate ever more fully in God's life through His
Grace, we become ever more deified, ever more in the likeness of Christ. Then,
at the time of our departure from this life, we can dwell forever with Christ
in His Kingdom because we "look like Him" spiritually, because we are shining
with the Grace of God.
Many years ago, in 1982, I took a trip to the Holy Land. I was still a
catechumen then, and was planning to be baptized back in California only a
month or so after I returned from the trip. I remember one day when I was in
Jerusalem, in the Church of the Holy Sepulcher, standing on Golgotha, at the
place where Christ was crucified. I was crossing myself. An elderly lady who
was standing next to me asked me where I was from. I believe she was Greek.
When I told her I was from America, she said, "You're from America, and you're Orthodox?"
I said I wasn't, but that I was soon to be, God willing. Then she looked at me
piercingly, and emphatically said, "When you are Orthodox, you can become
That was an affirmation for me concerning the life's path I was about to embark
on. I heard those words right there on Calvary, where Christ died for my
salvation so that I could become holy, so that I could have
the Grace of God within me at Baptism, so that I could continue to
acquire the Grace of the Holy Spirit, so that I could become deified.
With his Incarnation, death and Resurrection, Christ redeemed human nature,
opening the path to deification and even to the redemption of the body that
will occur at the General Resurrection. That is the objective dimension
of our salvation. But while our nature has already been saved, we have
to personally appropriate that salvation. That is the subjective
dimension of our salvation. Christ has already come to us; it is up to us to
come to Him and be united with Him.
When we read Orthodox teachings on transformation, holiness, and deificationand
even more when we read of people who have reached a high degree of holinessall
of it can seem far beyond us. In one sense, it should seem beyond us;
that is, we should feel we have a long way to go, because we do. However, we
should not feel that holiness and deification are ultimately out of our reach.
Each one of us is called to it. When I think back on what that lady told me on
Golgotha twenty-three years ago, I think about what I have not done to
become holy, to be transformed into the likeness of Christ, to be "saved" in
the maximal Orthodox sense of the word. I am sure that each one of us here can
think of what we have not done, how we could have done more in all the time we
have been Orthodox Christians. But that should not lead us to despair. Rather,
it should lead us to repentance, to a desire to rededicate our lives to Christ,
to the thought of what we can do to be saved, to be deified, from this
2. Living Sacrifices
With this in mind, let us look more closely at St. Paul's exhortation: Be not
conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind.
This is part of an entire chapter of Scripture that discusses spiritual
transformation. In examining this chapter, I will rely first of all on the
commentary given by St. John Chrysostom, who might be called the preeminent
Orthodox commentator on Scripture. St. John's commentaries on the Epistles of
St. Paul are of special interest because St. John was instructed by St. Paul
himself in how to interpret his Epistles. According to St. John's Life, on
three occasions his disciple Proclus saw the Apostle Paul standing over St.
John's shoulder and speaking into his ear while St. John was writing his
commentaries on the Epistles.
St. Paul's teaching on spiritual transformationRomans, chapter 12begins by
telling us of the preconditions for such transformation. St. Paul writes to the
Christians at Rome: I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God,
that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which
is your reasonable service.
In his commentary on this passage, St. John Chrysostom asks: "How is the body to
become a sacrifice? Let the eye look on no evil thing, and it has become a
sacrifice. Let your tongue speak nothing filthy, and it has become an offering.
Let your hand do no lawless deed, and it has become a whole burnt offering. But
this is not enough. We must have good works, also. Let the hand give alms, the
mouth bless those who oppose one, the hearing find solace in Divine teachings.
For sacrifice allows no unclean things: sacrifice is a first-fruit of other
actions. Let us then from our hands, our feet, our mouths, and all our other
members, yield a first-fruit to God." 
St. John Chrysostom says that, in the Old Covenant, animals offered in sacrifice
were dead after the sacrifice was performed. "Not so," he says, "with our
sacrifice. This sacrifice makes the thing sacrificed to be living. For when we
have put to death our members, then we shall be able to live."  St. John is
here referring to Colossians 3:5, where St. Paul says: Put to death therefore
your members which are upon the earth: fornication, uncleanness, passion, evil
desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry.
So, according to St. Paul's teaching, we are to present ourselves as living
sacrifices to God. In so doing, our "old man," our "man of sin" dies, and our
"new man" lives (cf. Rom. 6:6; Eph. 4:22; Col. 3:9). We put to death our sinful
passions, so that Christ can live in us. We die to ourselves, so that we can be
reborn in Christ.
Our death and rebirth are first marked at Baptism, when, according to St. Paul,
we die with Christ and are resurrected with Him (cf. Rom. 6:3-4). In Baptism,
we receive the Grace of the Holy Spirit within us, united with our soul, as
Adam and Eve had it within themselves before the Fall. This is the beginning of
our salvation and deification in Christ; but it is only the beginning.
We are to continually put to death the remnants of our "old man," in
order to be continually transformed into the likeness of Christ. That is why
St. Paul said: I die daily (I Cor. 15:31).
Christ offered Himself on the Cross as a sacrifice for us. In order to truly
know Christ, we must enter into His self-emptying and offer a sacrifice in
return. An inward sacrifice which is the act and sign of our
love for God and neighbor. It is the sacrifice of our hearts and minds to God.
The sacrifice of our egos, our pride, our earthly attachments and our passions.
The sacrifice of our time and energy for our fellow human beings, to whom we
dedicate ourselves for the sake of Christ.
As we allow Christ to put our egos to death, our fleshly selves are consumed on
the altar of love, and the sacrifice rises like incense to God. And as this
occurs, we are actually re-created by Christ into new beings:
spiritual beings with an entirely new way of seeing reality, different from
that of lovers of this world.
The sacrifice is painful. Our "old man," our "man of sin" does not want to die
on the altar of sacrifice. The pull of our fallen nature is strong. The Holy
Fathers teach that the Fall of man resulted from two motives. The first is
self-esteem or self-love (in the day ye eat [of the fruit of the tree]
ye shall be as godsGen. 3:5), and the second is love of sensual
pleasure (the tree was good for food, and pleasant to the eyesGen.
3:6). All sins in the world, the Fathers say, stem from these two causes. We do
not inherit the guilt of Adam's sin, but we do inherit the tendency or
inclination toward sin. That inclination belongs to our "old man," the
man of ego, the fleshly man, whom we have indulged over the years. When we try
to put him to death, he will fight for his right to exist. That is why the
sacrifice is so painful.
The pain of this sacrifice is powerfully expressed in the autobiography of
Abbess Thaisia, one of the great abbesses of nineteenth-century Russia. Once
she had a dream in which one of the great abbots of Russia, Damascene, appeared
to her. Abbot Damascene had died one year before, and Abbess Thaisia was now
enduring great tribulation in her life. In the dream Abbot Damascene asked her,
"Do you know what the meaning is of the rending in two of the veil of the
Temple in Jerusalem at the time of our Savior's death on the Cross?" Abbess
Thaisia replied that this signified the division between the Old and New
Testaments. "That is good," the Abbot said, "that is correct according to the
books. But think yourself: doesn't this refer somehow to our Christian life?"
Abbess Thaisia began to contemplate, and then replied, "I think that this
signifies how the human soul is torn as it strives toward God and toward
pleasing God. It is rent in two, becoming spiritual but not ceasing to belong
to the fleshly man that dwells in it; it is torn, cutting off and tearing away
from itself the will of the outward man, which is sweet, but inclined to sin.
Its poor heart is torn, tearing itself in half, into pieces. Some of these
pieces, as unfit but nonetheless akin to it, it tears and throws into the
world, but the others it carries like pure incense to its Christ. Oh, how
difficult it sometimes is for the poor heart; how it is tormented and suffers,
literally being torn in half!"
In her dream, Abbess Thaisia said this with such fervor that she was covered
with tears. Abbot Damascene said to her, "Yes, the Lord has not deprived you of
His Grace. Is it for you to grow fainthearted and despondent in sorrows? Take
courage, and may your heart be strengthened with hope in the Lord." With these
words the Abbot stood up and blessed Abbess Thaisia. She awoke all in tears,
but tears no longer of sorrow but of inexpressible joy. 
Abbess Thaisia's words provide us with an exact image of the sacrifice that is
required of us who would know Christ and be united to God. It is a sacrifice
most painful to the egofor in it the ego dies a slow deathbut it is a
sacrifice that brings the greatest joy, courage and freedom to the spirit,
which unites in love with its Creator. We must "give blood," said the Desert
Father St. Longinus of Egypt, in order to "receive Spirit."
Speaking further of the sacrifice we are to offer God, St. John Chrysostom again
likens it to the sacrifices of the Hebrews in the Old Testament. Just as the
Hebrews examined carefully the animals they were to offer in sacrifice, to make
sure there they had no spots and blemishes and were whole and healthy, so
likewise should we examine ourselves strictly, so as to be pure in all
respects. Then, says St. John, "we will also be able to say as did Paul, I am
now ready to be offered, and the time of my departure is at hand (II
Tim. 4:6). But this will be brought about if we kill the old man, if we put to
death our members which are on the earth, if we crucify the world to
ourselves. If, when Elias offered the visible sacrifice, a flame came down
from above and consumed the whole water, wood and stones, much more will this
be done for you. And if you have anything in yourselves which is relaxed and
worldly, and yet you offer the sacrifice with a good intention, the fire of the
Spirit will come down, and both wear away the worldliness, and perfect the
whole sacrifice." 
Here we see the basis, the foundation, of spiritual transformation: We have to
offer our whole lives to Christ in sacrifice, so that He can burn off the dross
and re-create us in His likeness.
3. Not Conformity but Transformation
Now we are ready to look at today-s theme in its full context. First comes
sacrifice, then comes transformation. That is why, in Romans chapter 12, the
first precedes the other in direct sequence: Present your bodies a living
sacrifice, holy, acceptable to Godand be not conformed to this world, but be
transformed by the renewal of your mind.
If we have put to death our "old man" on the altar of sacrifice, it follows that
we will not be conformed to this world.
What is meant by "the world"? There are several meanings of the term "world" in
Holy Scripture. It can mean the material universe, or the inhabited world. In
its negative connotation, it can mean those who are opposed to God, and,
according to some Holy Fathers, it can refer to the passions or to attachment
to the things of the senses. St. Isaac the Syrian writes: "'The world' is the
general name for all the passions. When we call the passions by a common name,
we call them the world. But when we wish to distinguish them by their special
names, we call them passions. The passions are the following: love of riches,
desire for possessions, bodily pleasure from which comes sexual passion, love
of honor which gives rise to envy, lust for power, arrogance and pride of
position, the craving to adorn oneself with luxurious clothes and vain
ornaments, the itch for human glory which is a source of anger and resentment,
and physical fear. Where these passions cease to be active, there the world is
dead'. Someone has said of the saints that while alive they were dead; for
though living in the flesh, they did not live for the flesh.
See for which of these passions you are alive. Then you will know how far you
are alive to the world, and how far you are dead to it." 
With this Patristic teaching in mind, the words "Be not conformed to the world"
can be understood to mean "Be not conformed to the passions." The Fathers say
that all of us have our own favorite passions: our first favorite, our second
favorite, etc. We are to examine ourselves to see what our favorite passions
are, so that we can confess them in the Sacrament of Confession and root them
out with God's help.
Be not conformed to this world, but be transformed. St. John
Chrysostom, in commenting on this verse, points out the different roots of the
words "conform" and "transform." In the English translation, the roots are the
same, but in Greek they are very different. The word for "conform" comes from
the root schema, which means an external pose, an appearance, an
outward image, the putting on of an outward habit. It denotes not something
lasting and fixed, but something unsubstantial that passes away. Another
translation for this word might be "fashion," as in another passage of St.
Paul, where he uses the same word: The fashion of this world passeth away
(I Cor. 7:31). This translation has the connotation that our English word
"fashion" has: that is, something that changes all the time, like fashions in
According to St. John Chrysostom, when St. Paul says, "Be not fashioned
according to this world," he chooses the word "fashion" in order to indicate
the fleetingness of this world of passions. "Be not fashioned according to the
passions," one might say. Also, the word St. Paul uses for "world" is aeon,
which can also be translated as "age" or "the world according to time"once
again to indicate the fleetingness of worldly delights. St. John Chrysostom
explains: "If you speak of riches, or of glory, or beauty of person, or of
luxury, or of whatever other of the world's seemingly great things, it is a
fashion only, not reality, a show and a mask, not any abiding substance." 
Think of the images that the entertainment media puts before us as worthy of
admiration and emulation: the rich, the famous, the beautiful. Are not these
what St. John is speaking of: "a fashion only, not reality, a show and a mask"?
It all passes away.
Not so with spiritual transformation. St. Paul says, "Be transformed by
the renewal of your mind." The word for "transformed" is metamorphosis
in the original Greek. This denotes something lasting and enduring: not the
change of one's appearance or image, as in worldly fashions, but the change of
one's organic and substantial form. St. Paul is saying not that we are to
change our fashion or appearance, but that we are to change who we are.
According to St. John Chrysostom, St. Paul chooses his words to show that
"the world's ways are a fashion, but virtue's ways are not a fashion, but a
kind of real form with a natural beauty of its own, lacking the trickeries and
fashions of outward things, which no sooner appear than they end up as nothing.
If, then, you throw the fashion aside, you will speedily come to the form."
In other words, do not live for what passes away, but for what endures for ever.
Our Lord Jesus Christ said: Labor not for the food which perisheth, but for the
food which endureth unto everlasting life, which the Son of Man shall give unto
you: for Him hath God the Father sealed (John 6:27).
In the worldthe world of the passionsmuch emphasis is placed on "image": you
have to have the right outward "image" in order to be successful in this world.
Our aim as Christians is entirely different. We are to be wholly transformed
in order to be fit citizens for another world.
4. The Renewal of the Mind
Be transformed by the renewal of your mind. What does St. Paul mean by
renewing the mind? According to St. John Chrysostom, he means repentance.
We are told to be transformed, but, as we look at ourselves, we see that we sin
every day. This could lead us to despair, to the thought, "I'm not transformed,
and I never will be." That is why St. Paul adds the words "by the renewal of
your mind": so that we will not despair. St. John Chrysostom writes:
"Since it is likely that, being men, they would sin every day, St. Paul
consoles his hearers by saying 'renew yourselves' from day to day. This is what
we do with houses: we keep constantly repairing them as they wear old. You
should do the same thing to yourself. Have you sinned today? Have you made your
soul old? Do not despair, do not despond, but renew your soul by repentance,
and tears, and Confession, and by doing good things. And never cease doing
From the theological point of view, it is important to point out that the
"renewal of the mind" that St. Paul speaks about is actually the "renewal of
the nous." In the original Greek, the word for mind here is nous.
In Orthodox theology, the nous is the highest faculty or power of the
human soul. It is the faculty that knows God directly; it is the seat of our
personhood, which experiences the Person of God in a communion of love. St.
Gregory Palamas and other Holy Fathers say that it most precisely defines what
is the "image of God" in us. 
At the Fall of man, the nous was darkened and became sick. The
Uncreated Energy, Light or Grace of God became foreign to it. As I mentioned
earlier, through Christ's work of redemption man receives the Grace of God
within him once again in Holy Baptism. But every time a baptized Christian
commits sin, he soils his baptismal garment, as it were. He dampens the Light
of Grace inside of him; he once again darkens or sickens his nous.
Instead of turning to and uniting with God, his nous turns aside to
the passions, to self-love and love of sensual pleasure. By turning to the
passions, the nous repels the Grace of God; it prevents the Christian
from continuing on the path to deification in Christ.
The sickness of the nous leads to spiritual death. The darkness of the nous
leads to spiritual darkness, in which we cannot see things clearly and soberly.
We cannot see things as God sees them; instead, we see them through the filter
of our passions. Thus we grope about blindly in life, hurting ourselves and
hurting others, either wittingly or unwittingly. We stray far from our purpose
in life, which is union with God. Although we might think we have lots of
important things to do, we wander aimlessly through life; and all our busyness
only serves to distract us from our diseased spiritual state, from the fact
that we are not fulfilling our life's true purpose. Our nous is
sick because we have separated ourselves from God, because we have sought after
our passions rather than Him.
5. Watchfulness and Prayer
The healing of our sick nous begins with what we have just been
discussing: the sacrifice of our "old man," the cutting off of the passions,
repentance. In speaking of the healing of the nous, the Holy Fathers
place much emphasis on the practice of watchfulness. We must at all
times watch over our thoughts so as to rejectto cut offsinful and impassioned
thoughts. When a sinful thought comes to us and we cut if off at once, it is
not a sin. But when we entertain a sinful thought, when we cherish it
and develop it because we are attracted to it, then it becomes sin, then it
separates us from God. When we entertain impassioned thoughts, our nous
becomes darkened, deprived of the Light of Divine Grace. These thoughts lead to
impassioned feelings, and the feelings fuel more thoughts. Soon we are caught
in a passion, and the passion becomes habitual. That is why we must cut off the
sickness where it starts, in our thoughts.
To cut off sinful thoughts, we first must recognize such thoughts as our enemy.
We must realize that they can separate us from God. For example, when we have a
resentful or judgmental thought against our neighbor, we must recognize that
entertaining this thought will put us at enmity with God. So we refuse
to entertain it. We just let it go. And if it comes back again an hour later,
or even (as often happens) a few minutes later, we again cut if off.
In the Orthodox Church, we have a special means of cutting off thoughts: the
Jesus Prayer. The effects of this Prayer are twofold. In the first place the
Prayer helps us to cut off and turn away from impassioned thoughts. And in the
second place the Prayer helps us to turn and keep turning to Christ our Savior
at all times.
When we practice watchfulness with the help of the Jesus Prayer, we make our
soul open to receive the Grace of the Holy Spirit, which transforms us and
deifies us. We are no longer repelling Grace, but attracting it. We are calling
upon Christ to have mercy on our darkened souls, to dwell within us more fully,
to fill us with His unending Life, with the Light of the Holy Spirit Whom He
has sent from the Father (cf. John 15:26). Thus our darkened nous is
illumined by the Light of the Uncreated Grace of God. "Only the Holy Spirit can
purify the nous," writes St. Diadochos of Photiki in The Philokalia.
"In every way, therefore, and especially through peace of soul, we must make
ourselves a dwelling-place for the Holy Spirit. Then we shall have the lamp of
spiritual knowledge burning always within us." 
In addition to saying the Jesus Prayer, we should cultivate the habit of calling
out to God in our own words. This should be done throughout the day. The
Fathers counsel us against trying to make long, eloquent speeches to God;
rather, we should pray simply, from the heart. We can call out to Him either
verbally or mentally, depending on the situation. Of course, we should call out
to Him when temptations assail us, but we should by no means wait for such
moments before we speak to Him. Archimandrite Sophrony, the disciple of St.
Silouan of Mount Athos, had the practice of praying to God each time he was
about to see and speak to someone. He prayed that God would bless the encounter
that was about to take place, so that God's Grace would be upon it. If we were
to follow this very simple practice, just think how our daily encounters with
people would be transformed, and how our lives would be different.
Also, together with praying throughout the day as we go about our daily tasks,
it is important to devote certain times of the day to prayer, that is, to a
rule of prayer. The content of this prayer rule varies with each person, and
sometimes it changes. It is good to have the blessing of one's priest or
spiritual father on one's prayer rule. The rule may consist of prayers from the
Orthodox Prayer Book, or the Jesus Prayer, or a combination thereof, together
with prayer in one's own words and the reading of the daily Gospel and Epistle
verses. St. Theophan the Recluse notes that, while we are reading prayers from
a prayer book or saying the Jesus Prayer, there may come times when we are
moved to just stand silently before God with heartfelt yearning. He recommends
that we stop reading or reciting prayers at such times, and then resume a
little later.  "It is better to perform a small number of prayers
properly than to hurry through a large number of prayers," he writes. "After
you have recited each prayer, make prostrations, as many as you like,
accompanied by a prayer for any necessity you feel, or by a usual short
prayer.' You may limit the entire prayer rule just to prostrations with short
prayers and prayer in your own words. Stand and make prostrations, saying,
'Lord have mercy,' or some other prayer, expressing your need or giving praise
and thanks to God. You should establish either a number of prayers, or
a length of time for prayer, so that you do not become lazy.' You
should pray a little longer on your own especially at the end of your prayers,
asking forgiveness for unintentional straying of the mind, and placing yourself
in God's hands for the entire day." 
Setting aside time for daily prayer is an indispensable part of spiritual life.
In families there should be daily common prayer before the family icon corner.
Even if only a little time is set aside for this, it can make a huge difference
in the life of a family. But in order for it to make a difference, it should be
regular, not sporadic.
The key to prayer rules is constancy. If we skip our prayer rule, our
Scripture readings and our spiritual readings for one day, we will find that
already the world will start to invade us: the world of the passions, the world
of distractions. If we skip our prayers for two days, we will be invaded even
more, and so on. As time goes on, we will have less of the mind of Christ and
more of the mind of the world. We will find ourselves more and more "conformed
to this world." 
In order to grow in the Orthodox spiritual life and bear fruit, we need to put
down roots, as in Christ's parable of the sower. And in order to put down
roots, we need to have constancy, consistency, in our daily prayer and
spiritual reading. In this practice, too, we can "renew ourselves from day to
day," as St. John Chrysostom puts it.
The daily, continual practice of watchfulness and prayer, of course, cannot take
the place of the Sacraments of the Church. But this practice can prepare
us for receiving the Sacraments, and can deepen our experience of them. St.
Symeon the New Theologian says that receiving Holy Communion is in itself a
kind of deificationbecause we are receiving the deified Body and Blood of our
Savior. Our practice of watchfulness and prayer, together with our repentance,
can help us to partake of that deification more fully.
6. The Primary Mark of Spiritual Transformation
Now, having looked at the nature of spiritual transformation and the way to
that transformation, let us examine more closely the marks of transformation in
We have already discussed in some detail the first two verses of Romans, chapter
12. St. Paul devotes the remainder of this chapter precisely to the marks of
transformation. Continuing his exhortation, he tells us what we are to be
transformed into. He tells us we are to show mercy with cheerfulness,
to let love be without hypocrisy, to be kindly affectionate to one
another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another; not
lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord; rejoicing in hope,
patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer; distributing to the
needs of the saints, given to hospitality. Then the Apostle goes on to
say: Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse. Rejoice with those
who rejoice, and weep with those who weep. Be of the same mind toward one
another. Set not your mind on high things, but associate with the lowly. Be not
wise in your own opinion. Repay no one evil for evil. Have regard for good
things in the sight of all men. If it be possible, as much as lieth in you,
live peaceably with all men.... Be not overcome by evil, but overcome evil with
good (Rom. 12:8-18, 21).
What a profound and beautiful blueprint of the Christian life! It is the
blueprint of a life not conformed to this world, but transformed and renewed in
Christ. Each point in St. Paul's exhortation deserves a discourse of its own,
but here I will only discuss all the points generally. What is it that all of
them have in common? Clearly, it is that we are to have love for one
another, and even for our enemies. St. Paul is only expounding on the great
commandments of Christ.
The most essential mark of spiritual transformation is that we have love. Our
Lord tells us: By this shall all men know that ye are My disciples, if ye have
love one to another (John 13:35).
In November of 2002, a friend of oursAbbot Jonah of the
Monastery of St. John in Point Reyes, Californiavisited Valaam
Monastery in northern Russia. While on Valaam, Fr. Jonah had a wonderful
conversation with a hermit, Fr. Isaaky, on a small island off the main Valaam
island. Fr. Jonah asked Fr. Isaaky about how we grow to spiritual maturity: in
other words, how we are transformed in Christ. In answering this question, Fr.
Isaaky drew from the teaching of Archimandrite Sophrony, which he had obviously
internalized and which he now lived out in practice. Here I would like to quote
from Fr. Isaaky's words, which Fr. Jonah recorded in the journal Divine Ascent,
because they go to the heart of spiritual transformation. For Fr. Isaaky, as
for St. Paul, transformation means being able to love in the most authentic
"At the beginning of our spiritual journey," Fr. Isaaky said, "when we are
spiritually immature, our entire religious attitude is ego- centered,
emotional, and rational. The deeper level of awareness, the noetic
consciousness [that is, the consciousness of the nous], has not yet
been fully opened. We are our egos, defined by our passions. We are far from
being authentic persons because we are caught up in our isolated
individualism. [But] as we grow, and gain more control over our passions, and
our souls become purified, Grace illumines our noetic consciousness. We become
more aware of God-s presence, and more aware of the other. We move
away from self-centeredness. The focus of our attention is on God. As this
happens, our own personal 'I' expands and encompasses others, so that we cannot
conceive of ourselves in isolation from God and our brothers. This is the bond
of authentic spiritual love, empowered by Grace. The more we grow in this
noetic consciousness, the more our love embraces all of those around us. We
pray from the heart for them, and for the whole world. We are purified by
Grace, so that we can authentically love in a purely unselfish way. This is the
essence of what it means to be a Christian: to authentically love.
"By truly loving God and our neighborwe are purified, illumined, and deified.
We are restored from our fallen state, from our ego/self-centeredness, and from
the tyranny of our rational and emotional consciousness. The passions come
under control, subordinated to the love of the Other. We become
purified of all that focuses us on ourselves and of all barriers to love." 
7. On Getting Out of Ruts
How can Fr. Isaaky's words not inspire us toward spiritual transformation? What
hinders us from growing unto the measure of the stature of the fullness of
Christ, as St. Paul says (Eph. 4:13)? It is our egos, our passions,
that hinder us.
Many of us get stuck in a rut in our spiritual lives. Usually this comes down to
one thing: we have our central sins, our favorite passions that we just do not
want to give up. These passions have become so much a part of us that we think
it is impossible to be rid of them. But it is not impossible. Christ said, Be
of good cheer; I have overcome the world (John 16:33). With His
Grace-filled help, we can overcome the passionswhich, as we have seen,
comprise one of the meanings of the term "the world" in Holy Scripture.
The problem lies with us. The problem is that, deep down, we feel that we have a
"right" to our favorite passions. "I have a right to be angry," "I have a right
to be resentful," "I have a right to this sinful little pleasure," or whatever
it is. Deep down, we do not want to give up our passions.
So the question comes down to this: What do we really want? Do we want to stay
in our ruts, so that we can freely indulge our pride, our self-love, our
self-righteousness, our desire to be right, our anger and resentments, our
sinful pleasures? Are they so important to us that for their sake we will
abandon the possibility of an authentic life in Christ, as Fr. Isaaky has so
What do we want? Do we want to be fashioned after the passions of this world,
which pass away, or do we want to have Christ dwelling within us, re-creating
us into new beings who will dwell with Him and in Him forever?
To get out of our ruts and get back on the path of transformation and
deification, we must cast off everything that separates us from God. Spiritual
life is like traveling upstream in a rowboat. The world, the flesh and the
devil push against us and against our progress. If our boat is burdened with
the weight of our cherished sins and passions, we will not get anywhere. In
fact, we will go backwards, and we might even sink. So, what we have to do is
to jettison the cargo which we cherish so much but which is holding us back.
Then we will be able go forward, toward that which we were created for: union
8. On Not Measuring One's Progress
In conclusion, I would like to make one more point concerning the theme of
transformation. The Holy Fathers counsel us that we are not to try to measure
our spiritual progress. Trying to measure our progress can lead to pride on the
one hand, and to despair on the other. If we think, "I'm making great progress,
I'm becoming holy," we can be sure that we are not making progress,
because we are being prideful, and pride separates us from God. On the other
hand, if we despair about what seems to be our lack of progress, this despair
also separates us from God.
So, let God do the measuring of our progress. Let God be the judge, both of
ourselves and of others.
Benjamin Franklin had the practice of counting up and recording all the good
deeds he did every day. From a worldly point of view, this might seem to be a
good practice; but this is not what we are to do as Orthodox Christians. We are
not supposed to count up our virtues and good deeds and then congratulate
ourselves, for Christ said, Let not thy left hand know what thy right hand
doeth (Matt. 6:3). In fact, we are supposed to do the opposite: we are
to look at our own sins. "Grant me to see my own sins, and not to judge my
brother," as we say in the Prayer of St. Ephraim. We need to accuse ourselves
of our sins, but we should not judge ourselves in the sense of passing a
sentence of condemnation. This is an important distinction. Godly
self-accusation leads to taking responsibility for our sins so that we can
repent of them, make amends when necessary, and ultimately become free of them.
Self-condemnation, on the other hand, leads to despairbecause, in passing
final judgment on ourselves, we are playing God just as surely as when we pass
final judgment on our neighbor.
Spiritual transformation, as we have seen, cannot occur without the Grace of the
Holy Spirit. The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound
thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every
one that is born of the Spirit (John 3:8). Transformation by the Grace
of God is imperceptible at the time that it occurs. We are being changed, but
we do not know it. Therefore, we should not attempt to experience states or
moments of transformation. Such an attempt can, after all, only lead to pride
and delusion. It is ours only to leave behind all that separates us from God,
to turn to God with our whole being, and to let God do the rest.
Spiritual transformation is only perceptible in hindsight. One day we may be
able to look back and consider how things have become different. Perhaps we
will notice that we are no longer enslaved to a particular passion that once
held us tightly. Perhaps, although the circumstances of our lives might be even
more difficult than they were in the past, we will notice that we are not
reacting to them as negatively as we used to, and that we have a greater sense
of trust that our lives are in God's hands. If we notice such things, let us
give thanks to God and not take credit ourselves, remembering the words of St.
Diadochos: "Only the Holy Spirit can purify the nous." Then,
continuing to practice inner watchfulness, let us look more deeply into
ourselves, there to discover more hidden and subtle passions, which we must
also put to death on the altar of sacrifice for the sake of Christ.
It is a difficult path, this path of continual re-creation into the likeness of
Christ, this path of sacrifice that leads to deification. Our Lord has told us:
Narrow is the gate, and difficult is the way, which leadeth unto life (Matt.
7:14). But this is the only way we can follow in order to fulfill the true
designation of our existence.
Therefore, following the exhortation of the Apostle Paul, let us not be
conformed to this age, let us not follow after the fashions of this world, let
us not fashion ourselves according to the passions. Rather, let us be
transformed, transfigured into new beings through repentance, through the
healing and purification of our nous. Through this transformation, may
we come to genuinely love God and our neighbor, may we be united with God
through His Grace, and may we dwell forever in perfect love with Christ and His
Quoted in Archbishop Basil Krivocheine, In the Light of Christ
(Crestwood, N.Y.: St. Vladimir's Seminary Press, 1986), p. 386.
Clark Carlton, The Life: The Orthodox Doctrine of Salvation
(Salisbury, Mass.: Regina Orthodox Press, 2000), pp. 163-64.
Harry M. Boosalis, Orthodox Spiritual Life according to St. Silouan the
(South Canaan, Pa.: St. Tikhon's Seminary Press, 2000), p. 19.
St. John Chrysostom, Homilies on Romans, in The Nicene and Post-Nicene
(Peabody, Mass.: Hendrickson Publishers, 1994), First Series, vol. 11, Homily
20, p. 496.
Abbess Thaisia: An Autobiography
(Platina, Calif.: St. Herman of Alaska Brotherhood, 1989), pp. 167-69.
St. John Chrysostom, Homilies on Romans
, Homily 20, p. 497.
St. Isaac the Syrian, Ascetical Homilies
, Homily 2, quoted in St. Ignatius Brianchaninov, The Arena: An Offering to
Contemporary Monasticism (Jordanville, N.Y., Holy Trinity Monastery, 1983), pp.
St. John Chrysostom, Homilies on Romans
, Homily 20, pp. 497-98.
See, for example, St. Gregory Palamas, "Topics of Natural and Theological
Science," and Nikitas Stithatos, "On Spiritual Knowledge," in The Philokalia,
vol. 4 (London: Faber and Faber, 1995), pp. 357, 139-40).
St. Diadochos of Photiki, "On Spiritual Knowledge and Discrimination," in The
vol. 1 (London: Faber and Faber, 1979), p. 260.
St. Theophan the Recluse, The Path of Prayer
(Newbury, Mass.: Praxis Institute Press, 1992), pp. 6-7.
St. Theophan the Recluse, The Spiritual Life and How to Be Attuned to It,
third edition (Safford, Arizona: St. Paisius Serbian Orthodox Monastery, 2003),
Cf. Fr. Seraphim Rose, "In Step with Sts. Patrick and Gregory of Tours," The
no. 136 (1987), pp. 272-73.
Abbot Jonah (Paffhausen), "A Vision of Contemporary Monasticism: Valaam and Fr.
Sophrony, from Psychology to Spirituality," Divine Ascent, no. 9
(2004), pp. 9-10.
Orthodox Word, Vol. 41, Nos. 3 & 4 (#242-243, May-Aug, 2005), pp. 147-168. Posted on 10 Mar, 2006 (n.s.).